Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Day 3...Eight Fears

Scary subject, right? No one like to talk about their fears and I know I absolutely fit into that group, but this is a lesson in getting to know me {and me to better know myself} so here it goes:
1. Death...this has scared me my entire life and as much as I try not to fear it, I can't help but get scared of death--to me, and to those closest to me
2. Failure. Sure, life has its ups and downs, but failure is something that scares me so. I try so hard not to fail that sometimes I think it gets the better of my emotions. I know I am not going to be good at everything so I might as well suck it up and move on.
3. Losing My Job. Jeff and I have been very blessed {thanks to the big guy up above!} with successful careers and sometimes I get so scared that with the current state of our economy, no one is too safe when it comes to job security.
4. Snakes and Spiders Oh My. Yes, any girl would probably agree...this is for the boys to deal with, and I stay as far away as possible.
5. Not Being a Good Christian. Sometimes I get so worried that I am not worthy enough of God's love and His forgiveness...I know He loves us for our faults and our mistakes and our shortcomings, but I try to do what is right and always try to think of Him in everything I do.
6. Letting Myself Go. Here is the superficial fear, but I'm being honest so I'm laying it out there. Sometimes I just hope that I can continue to leave a healthy, active lifestyle by working out and eating well and don't have to look back one day and say 'I wish I still looked like that'.
7. The Dentist. Yes, even when I go in for a normal routine check-up, I get nervous. From having braces, crowns, and fillings though I am the single most anal-retentive person about teeth cleanliness, brushing, flossing, and rinsing, good teeth doesn't run in my genes. I get so scared and freaked out.
8. Confined Spaces/Claustrophobia. Yes, in a crowded elevator or being on a jam-packed subway train, I cannot help but get uber anxious in confined spaces with too many people... I have to look up and take deep breaths.
OK now that my seemingly normal self seems a bit eccentric and crazy, I think tomorrow's topic will be much more fun: seven wants.

3 comments:

  1. I love this. Very honest... especially about your relationship with God. That's a huge fear of mine too, I know how many mistakes I make on a daily basis and wonder if I will ever get to the point that I'm striving for!

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  2. Great list... I can relate to most of them!
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  3. I definitely feel you on #3, girl!

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